You restrict your food.
You tell yourself, “No, you cannot have that. It’s not for you.”
Food is forbidden, off-limits.
This feels terrible. Unjust. Unfair.
You rebel against the deprivation and scarcity.
If you cannot have the food you want outright, then you’ll take it any way that you can:
you sneak food, you steal food, you hide food.
You plot where you’re going to get it, how you’ll get it, if you need money and where you will get it.
It has become impossible to simply allow yourself to have the foods that you want. So, you go behind your own back.
Basically, you’re cheating on yourself.
Ultimately, you just don’t trust yourself.
When you don’t trust yourself, you rebel.
So this fantastic diet that was supposed to end your weight and eating struggles, did the opposite. It compounded them.
You end up feeling shame and guilt and out-of-control.
And how do you deal with these uncomfortable feelings?
You eat.. Overeat… binge, hide, plot, and plan all of the food you will eat in private.
So, what is the answer if it is not about restricting our food intake?
Eating, overeating, bingeing, bingeing and purging, restricting, counting calories, fat grams… they are all actions.
Every action we take is because of how we feel.
Every feeling you feel is a vibration in your body, caused by a thought.
Every thought is a sentence in your head. You think these sentences are true. They’re not. They are your thoughts about things. But they’re not true.
When you think the same collection of thoughts again and again over time, they become your beliefs.
Whatever you believe about yourself, you will manifest in your life.
I slowly, I mean slowly, changed the way I valued myself. I did things for myself because I deserved them, not because I thought I should be thinner. I just kept doing them. I believed that I was deserving of better, of more than I’d been giving to myself.
In turn, I felt more confident, more focused on doing even more for myself. I felt far more compassion and caring toward myself.
In time, I was able to take action around food and hunger and weight that served me in ways that I could sustain.
Do you see yourself in what I’ve written?
If this resonates with you in any way, let me know.