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What Role Do I Want Food to Play in My Life?

Today, the food I eat provides me with sustenance, health, energy, and vitality. As well as pleasure and enjoyment.

But when I was in the midst of my disordered relationship with food, I made it mean all sorts of things.

Food was my
~best friend
~entertainment
~comfort
~safety net
~consolation.

When I felt like I didn’t belong, food was a comforting friend. I could count on food to be there when I had decided I couldn’t count on or trust anyone, including myself.

You Don't Have to Eat Over That

You Don’t Have to Eat Over That

The silver lining… the big takeaway is that I didn’t need to eat, overeat, or binge to buffer against this event. None of those things would have changed the circumstance. I would still need to take care of it. And the truth is that eating, overeating, or bingeing over it would have made it worse. Not only would I not have dealt with the situation calmly and rationally, but I would have pushed the negative emotions aside. The “shouldn’t be happening” thoughts would have persisted. Days later, I would still be mentally thrashing about, reliving the experience over and over searching for resolution.

I have resolution. I am calm. I am not taking it personally. I am taking care of myself. I am moving forward.

losing 100 pounds

Losing 100 Pounds – The First 25

What I’ve come to realize is that the journey is the destination. I know that this is one of those pat statements that elicits eye rolls, but bear with me. I am always arriving to meet myself wherever I happen to be. The great realization is that I will always have opportunities to learn more about myself and to know myself better, to wholeheartedly appreciate, love, and nurture myself.

Balance, Eating Well, & Weight Loss

I have been thinking a lot about balance lately.
It began with thoughts about work – life balance because I have been so tired lately, as well as overwhelmed by work. As I pondered what I could do to achieve more balance in my life by drawing boundaries between work and home, I began to expand my concept of balance.

In my life coach training, I was taught that life is 50-50. What this means is that we will experience sadness but also joy, determination and doubt. That there is a balancing act between emotions we label as negative or bad and those we label as positive and desirable.
I get this concept. It brings me peace to realize that there is a yin-yang to emotions. It makes sense.

However, I’ve started to think of balance as the coexistence of opposites, of them working in tandem. It’s not either or for me. It’s and.